Christmas? I guess i will be celebrating alone at home after work. Sigh ! When will this feeling just go and don't come back. I feel sour and bitter. I can't really describe the feeling in details. I just felt lonely.

Yups. Some of my friends told me that they got really no friends to call when they need a accompany to go out with. Me too. I felt the same way also. I got hardly close friends and friends whom will call me out and accompany me out. Often i got replies like ( see first
, depend, see whether .. want to go anot ) and etc. I felt rejected.

Nowdays had been very busy with work. Helping my mum at her western food stall and my another current job. Hardly got enough time to go out with friends, sleep and online. Well, I could say today i got all my time. Actually wanna spent my time with him but we got a big quarrel over a small matter of things yesterday.

I can't understand why he want to state that it is all his rights when he was in the wrong at the first place. I make the first move to message him and he seem nothing and still holding his anger on the small matter and taking out as a topic to quarrel. Oh well, since he wanted to be so native than let him be ba.

All this while, this 7th month seem nothing to him. And he could simply just let it go. Well, i can't. As i really treasure this relationship when we first started. I guess i gonna whole heartedly give up le.