How i wish i could get back to the past

Yesterday went to jurong east library with choon seng.. Actually intended to go study chemistry but in the end , we end up playing.. LOLS.. As we both don't have the mood to study, we walked to imm instead.. when we reached there, i went to mini toon and bought a packet of rubber band and sweet..After that went to macdonald to have student meal than jiu went home le.. On the way walking to the bus stop, he tickled me again.. lols..

UNCLE , PAIN LEH ! When we were on the bus, he disturbed me again.. lols..Is worst to let people know that u are scare of being tickled..CAN'T STAND ! so i dee siao him back.. hahas.. serve him right for being bitten by me.. wahahs.. He too bite me back -_-" .. Blue black le.. so pain.. Reached home at about 8.40pm.. Nobody was at home..

[ Although sometimes i seemed to be fierce , but i am scare of darkness.. hahas.. Not forgetting now is still 7th month ] Than i headed to the computer and chat online again.. But seldom people talk to me.. lol.. Than i went to search for my photo when i were young.. Actually, i felt that i am more fortunate than before..

Reflection about the past..My parents used to hug me tight in their arms..when i am young, i felt that i am everybody precious gem at home as i am the youngest of all.. My family members do really dote on me..As i can remembered we went outing almost every weekends.. Visiting places like zoo, botanic garden, sentosa, chinatown and lots more.. I can't denied that i am very obedient when i am young..My mum told me that i am very well mannered and greets everyone whom i saw when i am young..And i performed academically in my studies..

But now things changes le.. My results dropped ..I used to be very closed with my second brother.. Although he seemed to look very fierce at all times but he treat me well.. We are the closest among the three of us in the family.. He controlled my discipline at all times inorder not to let me led astray by bad companies.. I remembered when i was primary six and i was being beaten up by my mum and brother as i talked back to my mum..

I was being slapped tight across my face by my brother.. Knife cut through my heart when i was being slapped.. i was only trying to defend myself by getting back my own rights.. Since nobody dote on at all, i left home and i moved to stay with my aunt at pasir ris.. I was crying when i met up when my aunt..I told her the incident and she saw the bruises on my body and legs.. It was so hurtful in my heart and i hardly sleep though the night.. Few days later, my mum called and asked my aunt to bought me home safety.. Nothing happened when i got home..

I don't know why i am such a bad tempered girl.. I really wish to change away my bad attitude but i hardly could do it.. Since i had been beaten up by my brother again this year, we hardly talk for the first few weeks.. i admit that he has bad attitude too.. bUt hope he will change for the better..Now our realtionship had come to normal again..

Just now, because of a drink, he quarrel with me again..How does i knew the drink belongs to him? He didn't indicate his name or whatever on it.. He get fed up when his drink is being drank half by me.. he slammed the door like nobody's buisness.. i was so fed up after gettin scolded by him..why is the world so unfair now? am i a person who is very easy to bully? I just want to be like the past which everyone dotes on me well..Hope i wish to be in the past ..