last friday was parent session meeting.. early in the morning my mum wakes me up to get me prepare to collect my result.. yuPps i was kinda excited and scared.. i scared that i scored badly for all subjects.. yea.. without fail, i did scored badly.. i merely just get a pass or even u grade.. kaos ! stepping into the classroom of mine, i took the mumber tag and sitted down with my mum..at that while, my mum was talking with che lu.. however , i can say that che lu is indeed a independent girl compared to me.. as mr chong went down to collect something, xin hui ran to peep at the result .. i was curious too,so i ask her to check my result too..the moment she told me what position i am in, i was shocked..i really can't believed wat i heard.. my mother was tearing as she was disappointed in me.. i tried to control my tears but i just can't..therefore i went to toilet to wash up.. i am back to normal in class as i doesn't want to shed a drop of tears infront of my mum..fnally is my turn to collect my result slip.. nearly burst into tears seeing the result i got for my mid year..so disppointed in myself..mr chong told my mother that my behaviour and academic in school is good.. and he believed that i could go sec 5.. OMG.. *expectation from him*.. however i have no faith in myself.. during sec 1 and 2 , my class positon is second..sec 3 is third.. and guess wat, wat position i got in sec 4 mid year exam? first? NONO ! definetly not... second?? NO ! third?? NOT AT ALL !! i got fifth in class..mood swinging and swinging that day.. actually wanted to go west coast to relax and forget all the unhappiness but it was cancel.. feel like going to the beach to relax..