dear diary

i am just a normal girl..i may look strong outside but i am weak at inside..i need people to give me good advices to let me forget u..forgetting a person whom i loved for a long period of time is very difficult..is really very very difficult..the moment when i heard u have stead le than i slowly felt that in this world there were nothing left for me..i felt that my world is very small..very very small..i do not have so much friends like u..nobody will automatic ask me out..everyday will be the same for me? WHY?? my life and other people life is so much different!! i am just a lonely girl..nobody cares for me..wat is love?? why love make me suffered for such a long period?? i really can't stand it anymore..u just treated our relationship just like a game..DO U?? u told me that u will wait for me as u love me deeply..but now..change le..u told me that u don't want to have stead le until u serve ns but now?? all u know is to lie to me..u hurted me again and again..u make me don't trust love anymore..i acted very strong infront of u..i told u not to contact me and all sort of things..the reason is i want to forget u..it pains me when i told myself to forget u..forgetting u means alot of things..forgetting all the happy memories we had together..i was veri happy that u msg me that night when u went malaysia..i tot that u really have the heart to call me..but actually is u saw the letter i wrote to u last time than u called me..u did not informed ur gf but u informed me that u are going malaysia..u told me alot of things happening between u and ur gf..u all were very loving..although ur gf smoke but u still accept her..means that u really love and care for her alot ya..i gave up really give up le..wish u all the best in whatever u 2 do..happy alwaes..take care..good night! if we never break, we will be 1 yrs, 5 months today..

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miss ya